Our anniversary dinner at Tagaris, perfect music, food, setting for remembering our 11 years together. We postponed our anniversary dinner b/c we were camping with the youth on the actual date. We got to hear the amazing band, Run from cover too!
I think the straw that broke the camels back was when people would ask if I was pregnant. The first time this happened, it was 3 days after I had given birth to Leilani. I still had the big empty stomach out front so I undersood this comment and explained that I had just had a baby.
The next time, I was pushing the newborn in the stroller and my neighbor stopped and asked when I was due......did she not see that I was pushing a newborn? If I was knocked up that fast after having a baby ( I looked 6 mos along) then I deserved it, but I was not prego! The nerve!
The next encounter, I will unfortunately always remember, was in Kauai. Chris and I had just done an all morning hike, kayak and zipline adventure. We were in Hanale checking out the cool touristy places and headed into one shop. Chris walked in after me and I was following some ass in before me. He turned around and stepped to the side and said, " Oh, make way for the lady with a baby." So naturally I looked behind me expecting to see a very pregnant woman, but it was just Chris. So that left just me. He had said that ugly thing to me. A thing that I would have welcomed had I been pregnant, but that was not the case. His wife was sssshhhhing him from inside the store and saying "get over here." I walked out of the store and could not hold back the tears. They came out from under my sunglasses. Chris asked if we should go back to our town and I said yes. In the car he tried to be comforting and telling me how beautiful I am. I told him that I appreciated the kind words, but I just needed him to let me cry, and he did. We went to a beach on the way home and got thrashed around by some powerful waves. God comforted me then. He gave me that beautiful beach, sun, husband, powerful waters and made them wash over me. Men, women, idiots listen to this...... if there is any question in your mind if someone if pregnant or not, do NOT say ANYTHING. For the love of everything sacred and holy keep your pie hole shut! As a matter of fact, unless the woman is wearing a shirt advertising the fact that she is pregnant, or she mentions it in conversation, say NOTHING. Act like the bulge under her shirt is not there, becuase the truth of the matter is that you are ugly. She can lose weight but you will never get any prettier. Bite it! Ok, done with the rant. Last emotional vomit session for now.
I thought I was a slender woman, not thin, but definitly not fat. Enough of those coments tho and a girl starts to wonder. I would have skinny days, not many during the month, but some. Well, with the help of weight watchers and Kelly (my fav instructor from the gym) I have far more skinny days than fat. Also, I am so glad I did not go buy a new wardrobe when everything was tight. I can finally fit into the things that havent been worn in years. Who knew that my clothes were not shrinking? I thought that was the case. Honestly I thought that as they got older they must have been shrinking. Truth be told, as I got older I was growing, SUCK!
Anyway, my goal was 16 pounds and I made that a few weeks ago. I gotta give some props to my husband (who willing funded weight watchers food and online membership so that I would be losing "the right way"), to my auntie who is my ww partner and cheered me on, and to my daughter Dani. She would loving ask, "how many points is that going to cost you." It admittedly pissed me off a few times, but she was truly trying to help me. She has been saving and taking money donations for a few months. Well, after her birthday she bought me a work out shirt that I said I wanted when I reached my goal. What an amazing heart that girl has, I love her so. And the shirt looks beautiful!



